I will chase you until ... the end of time! ;)

         Ok now is the next day . Jay couldnt sleep last night cos he had  many things in his mind.When he woke up  this morning he went to have a shower and brush his teeth and after dress up he went to his first destination today ....






       Meanwhile  in Bey's appartament...






     Beyoncé couldnt sleep either, she didnt answer the phone , she didnt want to eat , she just stays in her room , curled up in her bed with  handkerchiefs around her ... she has her eyes puffy and red from crying  non stop. She couldnt believe what happened last night at Jay's  appartment . She thought that Jay was cheating on her and that he would break up with her , but  now this about  Claire and Jay and Sharon is too much . She was "ready" in some way  for the break up  but he didnt break up with her ... but she kinda did , well she said she wanted some space and time , but she knows she can be alone for this cos she love Jay ...... right? All of this thoughts were annoying Bey and as now is already 10am she  went to  shower  and after  she went to the only person that could help her and the one she would  trust her life ... cos she was the person  that gave her life!! 






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     Ms.Gloria : hey baby ! how are you today? you feel better?
     Jay: yes  mum *gives her a hug*
     Ms.Gloria: you sure about that?*concerned*
     Jay: yes....no ... I dont know how feel about this now ... 
     Ms.Gloria: c'mon baby tell mama how you feel! *they sat in the kitchen*
     Jay: *sighs* Im confused mom ...
     Ms:Gloria: about what son?
     Jay: well ...Im still shocked that I have a daughter now and I know that... I have to be here for her and .. what if she hates me cos I wasn't there for her the past 5 years?? what if she doesnt love me  or even like me ?  *sad*
      Ms.Gloria : baby dont worry about that now .. dont try to rush , just be there for her and show her that you love her and that you will be with her always she need you , show her that you wouldnt leave her never... be patient with her  and you will be allright !!
      Jay: *smiles a little* thanks mum ...
      Ms.Gloria:  you are welcome baby ... but Claire isnt the only one that you have in your mind right?
      Jay: no ....mum is just that ... I love Beyoncé , I need her .... and now she needs time and space and Im scared... scared that she doesnt love me no more .... I cant lose her ...
      Ms.Gloria: Shawn if she loved you she wont leave you , she just need time to think just that and If you really love her then dont  let her go ...be with her but at the same time let  her have her space .. you know what Im saying baby?
      Jay: yes ... yes  thank you so much mum , I really need it !*hugs her*    
      Ms.Gloria: dont worry baby  .. 
      Jay: I have to go now .. I'll be back later ok ?
      Ms.Gloria : ok baby :) bye








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      Ms.Tina: *shocked* hey baby  what are you doing here? *hugs her*
      Bey: *hugs her tigh*
      Ms.Tina: baby are you ok ? what happened? *concerned*
      Bey: *starts to cry*
      Ms.Tina: Beyoncé you are scaring me tell me what happened !! *they went to the living room and sat in the couch*
       ... well what is it baby ? *wiping her tears* ....
       Bey: *silence*
      Ms.Tina: is about work ? *Bey shakes her head no* then is about Jay? *Bey nods*
      what about him ? is he ok ?
      Bey: *sniffs* yes ... well I dont know ... I mean he is alright physically but ... I dont know ..
      Ms.Tina: what? *confused* what happened? you two broke up or somenthing? you had an argument? 
       Bey: no ... I dont know ..
       Ms.Tina: tell mama baby ..*puts her head on her lap and strokes her hair and Bey told her what happened*
       Bey: *sniff* and I -I- I dont know what to do ... Im confused and sca...
       MsTina: scared? it is normal Beyoncé , you are so young and this just happened in a short time you are shocked and confused  and is understandable but .... do you love him ?
       Bey : .... I-
       MsTina: shhhh dont say nothing ... just think and when you will be  ready tell him .. this is between you and him ... ok?
       Bey: yes *sniff* thank you  *smiles at her*
      MsTina: you are welcome ....now lets do something to keep your mind  occupied ...
      Both: SHOPPING !! *laughs*








      Lisa: hey Jay ! good morning *smiles*
       Jay: morning Lisa 
      Lisa: you ready for this?
       Jay: *nods*
      Lisa : ok c'mon then ... 


          (they entered  a room with toys and kids playing  around )


      Lisa: now is all into you Mr.Carter !
     Jay: ok :)


    (He began to look around  and finally  he stops and stares at a  little black  girl  with a curly hair and big blue eyes  that  you can see  and hear the  sea , she has a sweet face and a charming smile and also a medium size pinky lips .She was sitting in a chair looking at the wall with a sad face ...)




      Jay: *approaches the little girl * morning Claire !
      Claire: Hi ...
      Jay: you remember me?
      Claire: *nods and smiles *
      Jay: *smiles* and my name you remember my name?
      Claire : *nods*
      Jay: *smiles harder and knels in front of her * can you tell me then?
      Claire : yes  Shawn :)
      Jay: *smiles* yessss that's my name !! *laughs and  that make Claire laugh* how are you today?
      Claire:*kinda sad* Im good .. and you?
      Jay: Im good ... better now :)
      Claire: why? *confused*
      Jay: can you keep a secret?
      Claire: yes *excited*
     Jay: *leans and says* cos Im in front of the sweetest, prettiest and smartest  5 little girl of the world !!
      Claire : that's not true ... you are lying *folds her arms*
      Jay: no Im not *starts to tickles her*
      Claire :*giggles* stop stop  *Smiles*
      Jay: *chuckles * ok ok I will stop !! soooo you wanna play with me today?
     Claire: YESSSS! * she stood up and jumped on Jay's back and they play until it was time for Jay to leave *




         Once Jay left a part of his heart was missing , she already has a part in his heart and he knows she always gonna have that part . On the way back to her mother's house he cant stop thinking about another woman who also had a part in his heart ...


      Jay: I'll never let you go ... *he smiles while thinks about her and the goood times they spent together *




          Later that day  at Bey's appartment ...


    Bey: wow it is 8pm already ? this time with my mum was well needed!! *when she entered in the kitchen to drink a glass of water she notices a note in the fridge *


     Note: Hey Thu thu ! I came to see you but since you werent here I decide to call you tomorrow . I need to talk with you asap !! BTW  When I was here someone sent you a deliver it is on your bedroom ! love you -Solo :)
     
        
    Bey  run upstairs to see what she has and when she entered her bedroom she saw a bouquet with red roses and a note attached .She went to take a shower .She pick her pajama and put it on and she grabbed the note and lay in her bed. She began to read the note ....








          Hello Beyoncé , I know that you need time and that is an uncomfortable situation for both of us but I know is more for you cos I known about Claire longer than you . Well I just wanna tell you that I love you and no matter what will happen between us I will always love you . I know that this is hard but I just wanted to tell you what I feel , I need you by my side , I need to hold you , to kiss you , be able to go to sleep at night knowing that I will wake up the next morning with you laying next to me , I need to hear your voice and I need to see your smile ... wow that smile that make  you  melt inside and that brings light to anyone that is around you . Beyoncé I loved you since the first time I saw you and I just want you to know that you have the time you need to make a decision Im not gonna rush you I just want you to know that I will chase you until  the end of time , you are going to be always in my heart .  


                                  -LOVE YOU SWEETHEART . JAY
      


      SUDDENLY....






                                          TO BE CONTINUED ....








             THANKS FOR READING :) I WILL ALSO UPDATE  "SCHOOLIN LIFE" LATER TODAY !! HAVE A GREAT DAY  ^_^ 
     

CLAIRE ??

 

    Ok I have to say somethings ... 1- I wanna apologize for not post in a loooong time , 2- I wanna thank everyone who reads my blog and gave  me some feedback (I love yall) , 3- I wanna give a S/O to @NishBey222 & @T_Boogie >>> great writters= great blogs= great ladies!!  lol  & 4- Im in school break until April 10th so this means ... MORE UPDATES!! hehe ^_^  now.. I hope you enjoy :)






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     Bey:  hello ?
     Jay: hi  Bey
     Bey: Jay is that you?
     Jay: yes ... how you been?
     Bey: Im good ... and you ?
     Jay: Im fine *chuckles*

        *silence*

     (BTW THEY WERE KINDA AVODING EACH OTHER  LATELY ... THEY DIDNT SEE EACH OTHER SINCE  2 WEEKS AGO )
     


    Jay: mmm I think that we need to talk ...
    Bey: yes me too
    Jay : ok how about at  5pm at my appartment??
    Bey: ............. ok .... ok until 5 then
    Jay : ok bye *hangs up*
    Bey: *sights and hangs up*


     LATER THAT DAY ..... (4.45PM) AT JAY'S APPARTMENT ...








    woman:  you are ready to do this? *sitting on the couch next to Jay*
    Jay:  I dont know .. *sights* Im confushed ... and  shocked ...
    woman : *holds his hand * dont worry I will be here *smiles*
    Jay: *smiles back* thank you I really apreciate it!!
     woman :  you are very welcome sweety....


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   Jay: *open the door*  hey Beyonce :)
   Bey: hi Jay *smiles*
   Jay: * stares at her * mm... come in *moves a little*
   Bey: *enters* thank you ...
   (they went to the living room )
   Bey: *stares at the woman *  who are you ?
   Jay: mmm Bey  .. we need to talk ... can you sit down please?
   Bey: *looks at the woman then at Jay and sits down* who is her and why is she here Jay?
   Jay: *sighs*
   woman : *holds his hand* is ok Jay ... tell her *smiles at him*
   Bey: *mad ... sad ...pissed * Jay?
   Jay: well baby .. I know this past months I been distant , mean, nonchalatant ... an ASS*chuckles* ... and that  was  since her *pointing to the woman* came to my life ... she changed my life Beyoncé *smiles to the woman* and I been thinking a lot ... and I cant keep this longer , *sighs*  I have to tell you  cos I cant keep this to me ...

   Bey: *now she is going crazy , Jay is going to break with her  and she cant keep her composture , she is about to cry non stop ... the truth is she was thinking the same , she was about to break with him too , but it sounds different hearing it from him ....*

   Jay: ....I need to share this with you cos It's important to me to have you support ...
   Bey: *thinking * NO  he can be serious .. he want me to say that I will support him to fuck another woman?? he lost his damn mind ... I dont need this bullshit right now ...
  Jay: .. Im glad you are here  with me today cos you are my bestfriend .. and I really need you right now ...
   Bey: Jay !! stop going around .. spill it out NOW  !! *mad*
   Jay: ok ... Beyoncé  I just want to say that I love you ... you are been so good to me and you made me so happy but after this our relationship is going to change .. I wish not but It is what it is ...
    Bey: JAY!!
    Jay: ok ok  .. damn
    Bey: *rolls her eyes*
    Jay: welll mmm  .. look at these *handles her papers*
    Bey: *shocked* O.O Jay what is this??














       Jay: she ... she  is Claire ...
       Bey: who is Claire ? and why do you have pictures of this little girl?
       Jay: ....
       Bey: Jay please tell me!!
       Jay: she is my daugther
       Bey: WHAT??
       Jay: she .. she is my daughter Beyoncé
       Bey: I heard that !! but when? why? with who? really??
       Jay: wowowowowo ... well I think I have to start from the begining ..
       Bey: that would be nice  !!
       Jay: well .. last month Lisa *the woman* call my office and told me that Sharon *the baby mama* had a child  5 years ago and well .. that is Claire  and  I asked why she told me that and she said that Im the father so I took a DNA test and she was right  Im her father  ....
        Bey: ... but .. wh- why now .. I mean she had her 5 years ago why is she telling you this now ? and who is she *pointing to Lisa*?
        Jay: *sighs* she  works for the state ... she works in the social cases .. specially in the cases that involves kids ...
        Bey: why now?? * tears starts to roll down her cheecks*
        Jay: well ... Sharon was sick .. she had breast cancer ...and well she died a month ago ...
         Bey: O.O
        Jay: and she wanted  me to take care of Claire cos she thought that she needs to meet her dad and live with him if she couldnt make it ...she was alone .. it was just her and Claire ..she worked so hard for Claire .. she paid the bills but it was so hard and difficult for her since she knew she had a several breast cancer ...
         Bey: O.O *speechless*
         Jay: Bey please say somenthing...
         Bey: silence
         Jay: *looks at her *
         Bey: wh- what are you gonna do now?
        Jay: Im gonna  take care of her .. I mean she is my daughter ....what Im supposed to do .. she is mine .. I have to be here for her .. I know I havent been with her the past 5 years so I have to start over from here ... I need to be the best father for her ... she need my support now !!
         Bey:  *silence*
         Lisa: well Im going to leave now Jay ... I will see you tomorrow at the same hour?
         Jay: *looks at Bey then at her * sure
          Lisa: bye Jay...
         Jay: bye *she leaves*
         Bey: *sits there thinking*
         Jay: *holds her hand* Bey  baby  please say something ... pleaaaaaaaaaaase
         Bey: please dont touch me Jay ...
         Jay: Bey ?
         Bey: Jay .. Im sorry .. I have a lot to think ... I c-can  tell you anything now ...
         Jay: *tear up* say you love me ... say that you will stay with me ... tell me you aint going anywhere ....
          Bey: I cant Jay .. Im sorry .. I cant make any decision now .. I need time and space ... I need to be alone and think about all ...
          Jay: *crying * about what?
           Bey: about you ... about me .. about US .. about your daughter ...*cries*
           Jay: please Bey dont do this ...
           Bey: *stands up * Im sorry Jay.. *sniff* I will call you ...
           Jay: *stands up , follows her and grabs her arm * Bey please dont leave ...*teary eyes*
           Bey: *caress her cheeck and mouths "Im sorry " then she leaves*
          

    ONCE BEY LEAVES JAY WENT TO HIS BEDROOM AND SAT IN BED ... HE WAS THINKING ABOUT BEY , ABOUT CLAIRE , ABOUT HIM , ABOUT HIS FAMILY .... 20 MINS LATER HE STOOD UP AND WENT TO TAKE A LOOOOONG ASS SHOWER  TO RELAX HIM ... THEN HE LAYS ON HIS BED AND STARES AT THE TOP OF HIS CEILING AND THINKS ....

         
            Jay: why is this happening ? I mean why now .... but I cant reject her .. I mean she is my daughter .... my daughter  woww Im a daddy now *smiles a little*  ... I have to take care of her .. I have to be there for her, support her  ... I have to do all of the things my  father didnt do for me ... wow I hope she likes me I mean she  is so shy ... and now that her mother left ... I dont know I need to get some rest ... Beyoncé ... Beyoncé ... I need her too .. I need her to be here with me .. I cant do this alone ... but I understand her ... she doesnt have to do it .... ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ....can this be worse?






                                            TO BE CONTINUED....





     SORRY FOR MISTAKES !!   WHAT DO YOU THINK??  :) YOU LIKED ?

STRESS ...

    Ok  Im gonna travel in time , Now is November 2004... Bey already bring out  Dangerously in Love and  it went 1# and she went  in a succesful tour... After the 03 Bonnie&Clyde video came off  the media went crazy about Bey and Jay .. now after  some pictures of Jay and Bey "acting like a couple" everybody knows that they are together. Everytime they do an interview the interviewer ask for each other but they so smart and avoided the questions ... Bey and Jay are so busy with their carees and they barely see each other .Bey finally bought an appartement in NYC so she would be able to see Jay more oftn .. they had their ups and downs but they are more in love with eachother each day ! Bey finally met Jay's family and they love her.



    OK is  November 16th and Bey and Jay just have seen each other at nights .. After a busy and tired af day Jay returned to his appartement .He come to the kitchen drink some water and head to his room ... as he sat on the bed Bey open the appartament door .Pause- they have a copy of each other appartaments keys-


    Bey: *entering in the appartament* Jay! Jay? are you here yet baby?
    Jay: I am In the room love...
    Bey: *went to the room* hi baby (smiles) I missed you *leans and kiss him*
    Jay: mmmm I missed you too!
    Bey: *takes off her jacket and shoes*
    Jay: *looking at her * come here baby
    Bey: *sits and straddles him and put her hands around his neck* yes pop pop?
    Jay: *hugs her* I love you!
    Bey: *smiles* I love you too!*Jay was still hugging her *

  Pause2- Bey wanna get it in but Jay was so tired , but he didnt say anything

    Bey:*began to kiss his neck trying to turn him on... then she started to grind on him ... they start to make out and Jay fall on the bed with Bey on top of him. She unbuckled his belt and bites her lip looking at Jay .. they made out a little more until Bey had an idea <--- UH UH

      Bey: wait here baby .. I'll b back *gets off top of him* *she went to the kitchen and grabs some champagne ..but when she returned to the bedroom....*

     Bey:*with the bottle of champagne smiling* look what I got  baby!!
     Jay:.....................
     Bey: Jay? Jay? *shakes him * *Jay was sleeping.. Bey sighs and put the champagne on the fridge again and went to sleep with "sleeping beauty" <---- LMAO


   The next day when Bey woke up Jay wasnt in the bed or appartament with her ...He even didntleft a note ...Bey went to brush her teeth and  after that she called Jay ... but he didnt answer so she calle to his office number ...
   
     BEEP  BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP


    Jay: hello?
    Bey: goodmorning pop pop!
    Jay: morning
    Bey:  how are you?
    Jay: fine and you?
    Bey: good
   *silence*
   Bey: mmmm why you left so early ?
   Jay: awww I had to go to a meeting ...
  Bey : uh uh ... mmmm why didnt you answer your phone?
   Jay ; sorry ... Im so busy ...
   Bey: uh ... are you  going to come tonight to the appartament?
   Jay: ... I dont think so I have a lot to work to do so... Im not gonna be able to see you ...
   Bey: ok ... well Im gonna let you work ... bye  ..*dissapointed*
   Jay: bye *hang up*
   Bey: wow I love you too :(

   3 months later the things between Bey and Jay were the same they barely seen eachother ... they used to argue for silly things... they still are a couple  and they love each other but they both are stressed with their jobs so it isnt easy for the both of them ... Bey is about to go on a world tour with Destiny's child and If the things between her and Jay dont et better she would have to do the best for her even if  is hard :(


       *Talking with Kelly and Michelle*


    Kelly: Bey how are you ? How is Jay?
    Bey: *sights*
    Michelle: Is that bad?
    Bey: yes ... I think is better if we spent appart some time ...
    Kelly: really is that what you feel? you love that men !!
    Bey: yes I love him ...but I began to think that he doesnt love me anymore ... we barely see each other now ... we  dont act like a couple anymore ...
    Michelle: what do you mean?
    Bey: welll the before passionate kisses now are quick and on the check ... he doesnt hu me the same way ... and  welll ....  in the past 3 months we only make love 5 times and it isnt the same  anymore .. :(
    Kelly: Im sorry to hear that Bey ... maybe this time appart is a good idea ...
    Bey:....
    Michelle: what's up Bey? ... yopu think that is someone between you both ?
   Bey : I dont know ... I really dont know ... *starts crying*

    They pass the evening  with Bey  trying to cheer her ... she went with Kelly and spent the night in her appartament ... Meanwhile  in Jay's office...


     lady: excuse me is Mr. Carter here?
     recepcionist: yeah .. he is in his office .. Im gonna tell him that you are here ok ?
     lady: sure ... thank you
     recepcionist: you are welcome ...
     recepcionist: ok he said that you can come to his office ...
     lady : ok :)


     Jay: hey how are you?*hugs*
     lady: Im well ...  *they sit down on his couch and began to chat .. 20 mins later *
     lady: you told her  this...
     Jay: no ... not yet ..
     lady : and what are you  wainting for ? *mad*
     Jay: I dont know .. Idont know how to tell her this .... I cant believe that this  are happening ...
     lady:yes but you have to face this like a man ..
     Jay: I know ... *sights*
     lady: well I will call you tomorrow ok?
     Jay: ok .. thanks for all ...
     lady:*smiles and leaves*



                    TO BE CONTINUED..........


    SORRY FOR NOT POST IN A LOOOOOOOOOONG TIME .. IM SORRY I HOPE YOU ENJOYED  .. THANKS FOR READING AND COMMENT PLEASEEEEE :D!